Questions of opportunity

So as I sit on the eve of a surreal, joyous, saddening day, I find myself filled with questions. Some deep, some not so deep, and some just down right silly. But still my mind is flooded with questions...

I realize I haven't written in nearly a month, so for that, i must apologize. The last month has been filled with questions. A situation with my job here in Korea arose and I find myself, as we speak, on the eve of my return to the US.

Am I going home for good? Am I returning to Korea? What is in store for the future? Those are questions that I don't have answers for. Maybe in the coming days I will find some answers and some peace of mind as I continue to pray and seek the Lord's guidance and direction.

Was Korea a mistake? Was my time here a waste? Did I get any benefit out of my 6 months here? Those are questions that have resounding answers...Clear answers... My time here was an absolute neccessity in the story of my life. My time here has produced in me a benefit that will echo into the coming years. My time here has changed who I am. And although, I am not perfect and mistakes have been made...I find myself a better person in some ways because of the growth that has taken place in my heart in the last 6 months. So my time in Korea, although not what I had planned, has been a benefit and joy in my life in countless ways...

The relationships I have formed here have changed the way I view love and relationships in general...We were made by God for love. He created us as relational beings, and he desires for our lives to be filled with the joys of relationships. He desires for us to seek out relationships with people and with Him. His love and our knowledge of that love should produce in us an action that is noticable to our world. The people in our lives should be transformed by seeing His image of love in us. And we should be transformed by God's love as we look for the image of God in the love that we receive.

So to my friends I have made here, I want you to know this one thing. I love you all...You have changed me and made me a better person just because of knowing you...

So this Christmas as we reflect on God's immense love for us, may we be changed and grow in love and we love and receive love from the people God has put into our lives, for such a time as this...